Showing posts from April, 2013

I Would Die For That


My Thorn In The Flesh

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. In the last two years I have come to learn a lot about infertility. My struggle is with secondary infertility - that is infertility that occurs after giving birth to at least one child previously. I have now been infertile for two years. I know some women who have struggled with infertility much much longer.

Infertility, like any other disease or medical problem, is one of those things that you never think will happen to you. When it does, you start to ask a lot of questions. Why is this happening to me? Is this my fault? What can I do about this? How am I supposed to get through this?
I have read many times about Paul’s thorn in the flesh. Although we don’t know exactly what his infirmity was, we know it was very troubling to him and that he begged God to remove it.
So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me…

The Pain Olympics

Today I read this post from a blog that I follow. It was about something referred to as the Pain Olympics. I had never heard this term before, but basically, it’s that contest people sometimes engage in where they try to prove that their pain and suffering is worse than anyone else’s. I would rather not win a medal in the Pain Olympics. I would rather learn to focus on the blessings in my life. And that is what I long to do in this journey of mine - find the good, find the better blessing.
I have spent a lot of time sharing my world of secondary infertility with you. But I am beyond thankful that I’m dealing with secondary infertility. I have said it often - I’m so blessed to have a sweet little girl to call my own! My arms are not empty and I am thoroughly enjoying the role of motherhood. There are many women out there, and some of them my own sweet friends, who are dealing with infertility - nothing secondary about it. I pray for those women every day. Because they deserve to have wh…