Showing posts from August, 2012

Intentional Living: Part 1

It’s time for my very first blog series! I’m excited to share with you my list of goals or the “master plan of my life” if you will. Over the last year or so God has really spoken to me about living intentionally. We so often live our lives in a hurry, wishing the days away. I don’t want to wake up one day and realize that my daughter is grown, twenty years have passed, and I haven’t really done anything important with my life. I want to live my life to the fullest!

So what I want to share with you is my plan for living intentionally. I formed this plan after reading many books and blogs and spending time praying and reflecting on how God can use me in my life as a stay-at-home-mom. I have highlighted seven areas that we need to think about and will spend the next week sharing my specific goals in hopes that it will help you choose some goals of your own.

1. Intentional Faith - What are you doing on purpose to bring you closer to the Lord? How are you focusing on your relationship with …

How Will You Respond?

Hard times will come to all of us at various times in our life. The question has never been if we will endure hard times, but how we will respond to them when they come. For the most part I suppose we try not to think too much about what could go wrong. Then when something bad happens we deal with it “on the fly.” We haven’t made any preparations for such an event, therefore we must decide in the moment how we will respond to our trial. The problem with this is that our spur of the moment decisions are almost always based on emotions. And emotions alone almost never lead us to the right decision.

Unfortunately, many people deal with the difficulties in their lives by running away from God. They become angry at Him, question why He would allow something like this to happen to them, and turn their backs on Him. I doubt these people ever would have said out loud, “If I experience heartbreak, I plan to run away from my Lord, the great Comforter.” But because they had no plan, they followed…

Learning Contentment

Many of you know I have a 2-year-old daughter.  She is the joy of my life - very smart and very funny. Recently she acquired a new phrase that she uses all the time. “I want.” She wants milk, she wants the green blanket, she wants another piece of bread, she wants some lip balm, she wants that baby, she wants play-doh, she wants a lot of things! Almost as soon as she began using this phrase “I want,” my husband and I started teaching her a new phrase to use in it’s place. “May I please have...” It has taken many days, even weeks, of practicing this new phrase but she is starting to get into the habit of asking for things politely instead of saying “I want” all the time. Of course next we will have to work on the number of requests she makes, but let’s just take one thing at a time!

We do the same thing with God. We act as if all of our desires are urgent. We even tell God we “need” things that honestly, we just want. God, I need a bigger house, a newer car, a dishwasher that works, mor…

A Living Sacrifice

Recently I came across these verses while reading my Bible:

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
- Romans 12:1-2

I read them several times in a row. God wants me to present my body as a living sacrifice. I have heard these verses preached and taught many times.  A living sacrifice is much more than a one-time offering. It is daily giving my life over to Him over and over again. This is God asking for every part of my life. Could He ask for anything more?  Should He expect anything less?

On a “normal” day I am a stay-at-home-mom. My husband goes to work and I take care of my daughter and my home. It’s easy to feel unimportant as a homemaker. After all, I used to do these same things and hold down …

The Power of Prayer

We hear it in church all the time. Prayer is powerful. But sometimes it’s easy to feel like God is way up there and we are way down here and perhaps with so many prayers being said mine won’t really be that important to Him. Isn’t it crazy how we put God in a little box like that? After my first pregnancy loss I told my husband that I didn’t really want anyone to know about it. Our families knew because I had to have surgery, but I really didn’t want to tell anyone else. I was so afraid of the pity I thought I would get. Nothing seemed worse to me at the time than pity. But not telling anyone meant that I felt alone in my pain. The burden was heavy and I carried it by myself. Perhaps I didn’t trust anyone else with it.  I should have.

This month I experienced my second pregnancy loss. I called my parents and my husband’s parents.  I told my other family members. I messaged my friends. I started this blog. The outpouring of love was more than I could have imagined. I shared with you rec…

It's Not Over Until It's Over

Sometimes when you think you are finally nearing the end of a trial you find out it isn’t over yet.  And that’s what I found out this weekend. After a difficult week recovering from my ectopic pregnancy and the treatment I had been given my husband were headed out of town on a much needed getaway with our Adult Bible Class from church. I had had a big part in organizing this overnight trip to Branson and was really looking forward to it.  I felt like it would be the perfect ending to my week and just really help me clear my mind. It took us much longer than I had anticipated just to get on our way - I had a morning appointment at the lab for some more blood work, we dropped our daughter off at my mother-in-law’s house, we decided we wanted to eat lunch before we got on the road, and then of course we had to stop at Quik Trip because everyone knows you just don’t go on any kind of road trip without a frozen cappuccino from there! I suppose we finally left Tulsa around noon.  About an h…

Responding To Heartache

When someone we love goes through something difficult we often don’t know what to do or how to respond. Of all people I am truly the worst about this. I am simply awkward when someone near me is experiencing heartache.  Should I say something? If I say something it might make it worse. What if I say the wrong thing? Maybe she is tired of people bringing it up. If I do say something, do I have to hug her? I don’t really like hugging people that much, but if she needs a hug I should give her one. What if she is like me and doesn’t really like hugs that much? Will it bother her if I hug her? Maybe I should get her a card. Is a card too much? I never  know what I should do so I often end up doing nothing. There is a good chance that I’m a terrible friend.

Since I recently went through a heartbreak of my own I had the pleasure of watching how people ministered to me and I am filing away this information so that hopefully I will be able to be a better blessing to those around me when they ne…

Will I Meet Them?

After my first ectopic pregnancy I struggled wondering if I had a baby in heaven or not. I know that God receives little children, babies included, into His kingdom who have not yet reached the age of accountability. I also know that unborn babies have been given life from God and believe that when a woman has a miscarriage the baby's soul goes to its Creator in heaven. What I had never taken the time to study was at what point does the baby go from being a "mass of cells" to being a person with a soul? My husband and I had discussed it briefly long before any of our pregnancies and both agreed that since the Bible says the "life is in the blood" that perhaps when the baby's heart started pumping blood through it's body (around 21 days) it was then given a soul. We don't know that for sure, it is just where our conversation ended on that particular day.

And then I lost the first baby. That time was different than this most recent loss because I had n…

Grief and Loss

Here is my journal entry from last Friday. It was a difficult day for me.

August 17, 2012

I will not get to have this baby. Somehow I feel as though I knew it all along, but at the same time I was very excited about the possibility and now I am saddened by this loss.

My doctor's nurse called yesterday. She told me that my hormone pregnancy levels were at 6998 - indicating that I was between 6 and 7 weeks pregnant. That was concerning to her because of the ultrasound we had and our inability to find anything in the uterus or the tubes. She said I should probably come in today (Friday) and have the methotrexate shot to treat (end) the ectopic pregnancy.  

At this point I had already done a lot of reading and had determined that one of three things was probable: a blighted ovum (baby implants but then does not grow and leaves an empty sac), an ectopic pregnancy, or a pregnancy that for some reason was just hard to see. All of these made sense and there were many stories about all of the…