Happy Birthday Leilani Rose

Tomorrow is her birthday. One year ago she left me. She went from my body straight into Jesus’ arms. I still miss her so much.

It’s amazing what can happen in a year. For me, May 2012 to May 2013 could look like this:

- diagnosis involving my fertility - blocked tube

- fertility drugs

- ectopic pregnancy

- back to back miscarriages

- meeting with specialist

- miracle pregnancy!

Or, it could look like this:

- I had no idea where my path would take me, but I trusted God.

- He led me through some of the most treacherous ground I have ever walked.

- But he stayed right with me and even carried me in many places.

- I have grown and am still becoming a better person because of that journey.

- God has blessed me with a chance to be mommy to a new little girl - praise Him!

Leilani was an answer to my prayers. I begged God to allow me to get pregnant. After over a year of actively trying, He showed me that it was in His hands and that He could give me a child. He taught me to trust Him, even when it didn’t seem to make sense.

Leilani gave me hope that I would someday have another child.

Leilani is the reason I started this blog. Her short life inside of me has been a blessing to people she never knew.

Leilani is in heaven with three of her siblings and with JESUS. She will not come to me, but someday I will go to her. I long for that day.

I am grateful for the time that we had with her.

Here is the birthday tribute that appeared in the M.E.N.D. newsletter.