Happy Birthday Nathaniel

Dear Sweet Nathaniel Ellis,

One year ago today I sent you home to be with Jesus. It was a very sad day for me because I wanted to see you grow up, but I’m thankful that you were spared the hurt of this world. And I love imagining how wonderful your life must be in heaven as you worship our Father!

You were the first baby I conceived after losing my fallopian tube. You gave me hope that despite the odds I might someday raise another child. I’m so thankful for that. Your name has a very wonderful meaning. Nathaniel means “gift of God.” You certainly have been a gift to me, even though I carried you for just a few short weeks. Ellis means “my God is the Lord.” When I lost you I knew that I had to remember that you were a gift from the almighty and sovereign God and that He had a purpose for you - a purpose you are still fulfilling today.

I can’t wait to meet you. I can’t wait for you to know your sisters and your daddy. My heart rejoices in knowing that our separation is only temporary and that our family will all be together with Jesus someday. In the meantime, enjoy the fellowship that I know you must have with your other siblings - Ezra, Leilani, and Jude - and I will see you soon enough.

I love you,

Mommy

“I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.”

      - 2 Samuel 12:23