The waiting is hard, but I definitely have more peace right now than I ever expected. When I first found out I was pregnant again I wanted time to speed up until I got to the point where I knew if the baby would be okay or not. Now I just want time to slow down so that I can just enjoy being pregnant before I get any news that might make me worry more. I had another blood test this morning and should get a call sometime tomorrow with the results. The me from last week would have begged to get the results back faster so I could just know what was going on. The me this week is not ready to hear those numbers. It seems like the numbers rarely encourage me. Instead, they just make me feel concerned or confused. For today, I am pregnant, I feel pregnant, and I have no symptoms to give me any concerns about ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage. For today, everything is just fine, and that’s where I want to stay for now.
I have asked God to continue giving me indications of pregnancy. So the symptoms have stayed with me, the nausea comes every day, the food aversions are increasing, and the cat still sleeps right next to my stomach every night. :) And trust me, you will never hear me complaining about “morning sickness.” I welcome it!
To my friends who have been praying, thank you. You have no idea how much more peace I have now than I did when this news was my own secret. The difference has been the prayers that have been lifted up on my behalf and I appreciate them so much! Tomorrow I hope to be able to write good news about increasing hormone levels and maybe even have an ultrasound scheduled.